Consumed In My Thoughts

I’m an introvert. I typically don’t mind being alone, but sometimes I find myself craving the energy of the one person I use to spend my free time with. Being on quarantine has hurt and helped me in many ways. I am separated from all my friends/ new family, I have no band class anymore but on the bright side I can finally fully work on myself. My class schedule along with band weighed heavy on my shoulders, it was a lot to carry.

Now I can breathe and focus on me. This isolation forced me to be consumed in my thoughts which made it clear that I wasn’t done healing from something that had broken me. The problem was that I didn’t allow myself to fully become myself again before adding someone else to the equation. This was a mistake. It was just a matter of time before it caught up to me, but this is truly for the better. I realized I was starting to become the opposite of the women I wanted to be. I began exercising daily and taking extra care of my body and hair. Trying to watch what/ how I say things to people. Finding new outlets for myself. This quarantine has really been an adventure and I’m excited about the outcome of myself once this is over.

Velessie Washington